It’s Employee Appreciation week at work. This is something that my workplace does every year to show their heartfelt gratitude for the feeble efforts of us little guys. I say that in jest. My company does put a lot of effort into keeping us happy, and that’s a hell of a lot more than I can say for most places. Sure, like all top-down, hierarchial organizations, it has its faults, but there are far worse places out there. I’ve worked at a few. There are places out there that don’t give two shits about their rank and file employees, places that view their people, the lifeblood of their organizations, as just another resource to be exploited. I have much to be thankful for in this department.
So, this week my work is catering meals every day and has a continually filled popcorn machine on the grounds. The old me would revel in these facts, and not give a second thought to stuffing his fat face with reckless abandon. The me of today is locked in an internal struggle, a battle of wills. On the one side is my rational mind, which has helped me lose seventy pounds, and does not want to see me lose ground. However, on the other side, is a thoughtless and hungry animal, that doesn’t give a rat’s ass about getting and staying in shape. This beast only cares about its next burrito or cupcake. This creature knows no self-control. So far, the beast has had its way.
I am going to have to get a grip soon, or I will lose all the progress that I have made. I know I can do this. I have proven that I can do this. And most importantly, I really, really want to do this. With that said, tomorrow is lasagna day, and the beast is hungry.
That’s all for tonight, friends. Thanks for reading!
I apologize for my hiatus. Don’t you hate it when bloggers and vloggers say that? Every time I heard one of the people that I subscribe to say, “I’m so sorry it’s been so long since my last video/post,” I cringed. I didn’t care. It’s your channel/blog/podcast, make content whenever you damn well please. Sure, if you are interesting I will miss you, but I’ll get over it. I honestly doubt that anyone takes notice when I miss a day or two of blogging. If you do, the God bless you, my loyal reader. You have done well. Now get a life. Just kidding.
Anyway, my struggle with the Standard American Diet (SAD) continues. I was looking over the spreadsheet that I track my weight in, and found a pattern. For the past couple of months, I have been holding steady at around 245 pounds. One week I will lose 1.5 pounds, and the next week I will gain it back. This whole time I have been faithfully doing my intermittent fasting protocol. During the week I eat only once a day. The problem is that I have been eating the standard junk food diet that the average American eats. Sure, I’m only eating it once a day, but the result is that I am not losing any weight. I am holding my ground. I am still experiencing the freedom from stomach problems that used to plague me, and I credit that to allowing my GI track to rest for twenty hours out of the day. But, I would really like to start making ground again.
I know in my previous post that I said that I was getting back on track. That didn’t happen. I was unable to muster the willpower to do it. I am not giving up, though. I plan to try again this week, with a few modifications. I’m scrapping the whole ‘wristband’ idea. I tried it for a couple of days, and surprise, it didn’t prevent me from eating junk. I think instead I am going to go back to basics with my old 3pm to 7pm window. I am going to take a bag of walnuts and a couple of Cutties (small oranges) with me to eat on my way home from work. That’s what I used to do, and I believe it helped me to stay on track. The other thing is that I have got to work in some physicall excersie into the equation. I am going to try to get in three quick resistance workouts a week. My work place has an excersie room with dumbells and kettlebells. I must start taking advantage of it.
I’m hoping that If I can successfully jumpstart my weightloss plan again that all the other stuff will follow suite. I don’t want to be one of those bloggers who shamelssly abandon their writting and readers for months on end, only to come crawling back, apologizing for not being there. That’s not me.
So, that’s all for now. How have you peeps been holding up without me? Hit me up in the comments or on Twitter sometime.
The struggle continues, friends. On my last weigh-in, I was up two pounds. That is freakin unacceptable. I have gotten to a point where I let the slightest thing, the tiniest inconvenience deter me from my plan. I started out with the best of intentions this morning. I stayed on my protocol perfectly until I got off work. Denice picked me up from work, and we had one errand to run before going home. We took the car to get the tires rotated. It was going to be an hour wait, and there was a Cheddars right next door. We instantly gave in and commenced stuffing our faces.
The worst part of it was that I was not even hungry. I usually experience mild hunger early in the day, but once that passes I am fine. There was no reason for me to eat out tonight other than being compelled to by a bad habit. This must change.
I have an idea to help myself remember to stay on the protocol. It’s extremely simple, but I think it may be effective. I’m going to get one of those cheap silicon wristbands, probably a black one. While I am on my protocol, Sunday through Friday, I will wear this wristband. It will remind me that I am to have my self-discipline turned on, and cannot deviate from the plan. If I want to go off plan, I will have to consciously remove the wristband. I am hoping this small exercise in mindfulness will allow me to stick to the protocol better. We’ll see.
I still have not gotten back on track from the epic relapse I fell into during my last vacation. Well, I have another vacation coming up the first week in April. I have to get my head game under control or I am going to have a bad time.
Tomorrow I begin again. I have come too far to give up. One way or the other, I am going to do this thing.
I seem to be stuck in a relapse of my former bad habits. For the past few days I have eaten food whenever I felt the compulsion, and the food I have been eating is not in any sense healthy. Tomorrow I weigh in and I can only guess how much fat I have reacquired. This is unacceptable. I have come too far to revert to the creature that I was before.
Yesterday morning I did wake up and do three rounds of the Wim Hof Method first thing. That day I was able to hold off eating until the afternoon. I have not had any cold or contrast showers all week. I’m going to try to reboot things tomorrow. I know I will get back on track, I just hope I will be able to do it before I have to go back to work on Monday.
Besides my cutting loose into debauchery, everything else is going well. I’ve been enjoying getting to spend a lot more time with Denice. We haven’t really been doing anything besides hanging out at the house, but it’s still nice. I always take the path of inactivity when I don’t have a plan. If there is no structure, I fall apart. This is troubling seeing that I would like to have a more financially independent lifestyle in the future. I really need to work on correcting this weakness. If I cannot self-organise my life outside of a company imposed schedule, I’m not going to have a good time with it. I need to learn self-discipline on a whole other level than what I am operating on now.
On a positive note, I did complete one project that was on my list. I successfully replaced our sink sprayer. The old one was worn out and would not immediately stop spraying when the trigger was released. Replacing it and the hose was much more difficult than I had expected. The connection of the hose to the faucet module was very hard to access. There was not enough room to get a wrench on it. It took a while, but I eventually worked it free and got the new hose connected. It was a frustrating but ultimately rewarding task.
We have two Redbox DVD’s to watch tonight: Deepwater Horizon and Denial. Denice is taking a nap, so I’m going to go wake her up.
As I mentioned a couple of posts ago, I had a couple of diversions from my protocol last week. The first was on Wednesday night when Denice and I had diner out at a Mexican restaurant. To compensate for this indiscretion I fasted all day on Thursday. Friday I had a planned deviation from the plan due to a celebratory lunch out with my team at work. I was hoping that both of these incidents wouldn’t blunt my progress too much. Well, it did.
When I weighed in Saturday morning I had gained five pounds. I was a little shocked. Going off track just a couple of times had reversed all of the progress I made over two weeks. And that’s not all. I have slacked off on doing the Wim Hof Method and the cold shock training. I have gotten fast and lose with my protocol as of late. That cannot continue. I am convinced that the WHM is the driving force behind my success with the weight loss. Starting tomorrow I am going to make sure to practice it twice a day, and not neglect the cold exposure. I think that’s a vital part of the process too.
I am also going to begin the kettlebell training that I have been talking about for a while now. I’m planning on doing kettlebell swings on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays after work. So, by next Saturday I intend to have made good progress in the right direction. I’ve come too far to screw this up now.
Tomorrow is MLK day. Martin Luther King Jr. was a very interesting and influential person. I think tomorrows post will be about him and more importantly his philosophy of nonviolent resistance.
Till tomorrow, my friends.
I learned today that two more of my coworkers have converted to the Intermittent Fasting Faith. As the Apostle of IF to my work, I am overjoyed to see the gospel spread. I haven’t even been pushing it. People are seeing my results and are asking me what my secret is. My response is usually, “So, you want to know what I’ve been doing to lose weight. Ok, I’ll tell you. Are you ready? Ok… I eat less frequently. Now you know my secret.” Of course I say that in jest. There is more to it than that, but that is the main thing.
I am about 70 pounds lighter now than when I began. I have no doubt that in a few months I will be in the sub-200’s. This protocol has gotten progressively easier as I have dialed it in. The biggest problem I am facing now is the decision to buy smaller sized clothes or not. I don’t want to spend a lot of money buying clothes that in a few short months will not fit me. Of course the ones I have already don’t fit. First world problems… sigh.
Tonight Denice and I were out late running errands. I actually suggested the idea that we just go get mexican food, which we ended up doing. So I have went off the plan today. To complicate matters my boss is treating my department to lunch at a local restaurant for doing such a good job. I don’t want to offend anyone by not partaking, so I plan on going off plan Friday in order to be there with my team. I am going to try to compensate for these two excursions by not eating at all tomorrow. I haven’t really gone more than a day since I started IF, so this will be a new thing for me. I think I will be fine. We’ll see.
That’s all for now, my IF sisters and brothers. Keep spreading the Good News!
Last week because of Christmas I had a three day weekend. I spent all three days in an epic binge. I did pretty well the rest of the week so I still lost two pounds. This weekend due to New Years I had another three day weekend. Today was a different story though. I was able to hold my ground and follow the protocol. I did four rounds of The Wim Hof Method, followed by a cold shower this morning. I fasted all day, and just had a delicious Slow Carb diner of pork chops and veggies. Feeling strong.